I cried at work today….

I was sitting at my desk this morning and all of a sudden I hear a big ruckus. That’s right, I said ruckus. These men show up with a bunch of cubicle panels and tools and whatnot and start working. I am on my computer and they tell me that I am moving desks. I didn’t know today was the day, even though I knew it was coming. I said, hang in there guys, I just need a few to pack up my things. Oh, sure take your time is the response.

Then all of a sudden, they start taking the walls down around me, WHILE I AM STILL SITTING THERE.

So, let me back up here and explain that I forgot to take my meds this morning.

I started freaking out! My head was pounding and I ended up crying. I had to go lock myself in a conference room to calm down. Couldn’t they give me 10 minutes to move out of the way or something. This really pressed my buttons for some reason, and I cried. It’s been a while since that happened, but I know why it was so immediate….

Today is my ex’s birthday. Tomorrow is the 1 year mark from the break up. I have come so far, but I am still not 100% recovered from all the BS of the last year and a half. For a few minutes I regressed back to the hospital.

Now I am at home in my PJ’s grateful for the rain and kinda scared of the thunder….

~ by scifibutterfly on August 8, 2008.